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Title: Make It All Okay
Author: Amre (![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
dazzamre)
Beta: The incomparable, and speedy,madame_d ;)
Pairing: Ewan/Hayden
Rating: PG-13 (for language)
Summary: Ewan has to choose.
Feedback: Always welcomed. :)
Disclaimer: I don’t know them, and don’t presume to know anything about what goes on in their bedrooms or, you know, wherever. The title and quite a few lyrics lifted from REM’s "Make It All Okay" which inspired it.
A/N: A little angsty, a lot short.
Make It All Okay
It wasn’t supposed to end the way it did.
Filming would end, and you’d go your separate ways. You’d see each other doing press and at premieres. And while it was understood that, technically, it was over that wouldn’t prevent the occasional fuck for "old time’s sake." You’d be mates, and no one would think twice about your affection towards each other. All in all, your life would return to normal. It would all be okay.
But it didn’t end the way it was supposed to end.
~*~*~*~
"Hayden, you can’t be serious."
You don’t really think that, but it’s your first reaction and the words are out before you can stop them. His eyes narrow dangerously, and maybe you would have been better off not saying anything. He shakes his head, not in negation, but in something akin to disappointment. The door closes quietly, and you're left alone with his words echoing in your head.
Pick. Choose. Make up your mind.
"Fucking prick! Of all the fucking nerve!" Despite your best attempt at indignation, the words fall flat.
You knew things were getting out of hand. You know you're closer than you should be. It’s your fault. It should never have happened in the first place. You're the one who’s married. You're the one with kids. It was stupid to get involved with him...to fall in love with him.
~*~*~*~
"So that’s it?"
"Don’t sound so surprised, Ewan. It was your choice," he shrugs.
"Hayden, I can’t just..."
You're angry with him now. Angry at what he’s asking you to do. Angry that he doesn’t really seem that upset that you’ve refused. Angry that he’s put you in this position, and angry that you’ve allowed it to happen.
You don’t have a choice. There’s only one way to go, and fuck him if he can’t understand that. Why he’s suddenly hugging you, you don’t know. You would push him away, but you're using all your effort not to melt into the embrace.
"We don’t have a prayer between us," he whispers against your ear. He’s so quiet, you think for a moment you may have imagined it.
When he finally lets go, he smiles at you sadly, and then he’s gone.
~*~*~*~
By the time the movie premieres, you're over him. You don’t wake up dreaming about him at night. You don’t search for something to hold onto to help you make it through the day. You don’t need him anymore.
When his lips brush against yours, you wonder if you ever really believed that.
Later, when you're able to steal a few uninterrupted moments with him, it all comes flooding back, and you're not sure how you ever let him go. He murmurs about starting over in your ear, and you hold him tight, assuring him with hushed promises that you’ll make it all okay. You don’t know if you can really do that, but he’s offering you the heavens. You can’t turn away; not again.
Make It All Okay by REM
You threw away the ballast and you rowed your boat ashore
Didn't you, now? Didn't you?
You made your ultimatum too big to ignore
Didn't you, now? Didn't you?
So you worked out your excuses,
turned away and shut the door.
The world's too vast for us now,
and you wanted to explore
It's a long, long long road
And I don't know which way to go
If you offered me your hand again I'd have to walk away.
When I saw you at the street fair, you called out my name
Didn't you, now? Didn't you?
You said we could start over, try and make it all okay.
Didn't you, now? Didn't you?
So our past has been rewritten
and you threw away the pen.
You'd said that I was useless,
but now you'll take me in again
Well Jesus loves me fine.
And your words fall flat this time.
Was it my imagination, or did I hear you say,
"We don't have a prayer between us."
Didn't you believe that I have finally turned away?
Didn't you, now? Didn't you?
Anything to hold onto to help me through my day.
Didn't you, now? Didn't you?
Jesus loves me fine.
But his words fall flat this time.
It's a long, long long road
And I don't know which way to go
If you offered me your world, did you think I'd really stay?
If you offered me the heavens, I would have to turn away.
Was it my imagination, or did I hear you say,
"We don't have a prayer between us."
Didn't you, now? Didn't you, now?
Didn't you?
Make It All Okay by REM
Please let me know if the link expires, runs out, or it there’s any other problems with it.
Author: Amre (
dazzamre)Beta: The incomparable, and speedy,
madame_d ;)Pairing: Ewan/Hayden
Rating: PG-13 (for language)
Summary: Ewan has to choose.
Feedback: Always welcomed. :)
Disclaimer: I don’t know them, and don’t presume to know anything about what goes on in their bedrooms or, you know, wherever. The title and quite a few lyrics lifted from REM’s "Make It All Okay" which inspired it.
A/N: A little angsty, a lot short.
Make It All Okay
It wasn’t supposed to end the way it did.
Filming would end, and you’d go your separate ways. You’d see each other doing press and at premieres. And while it was understood that, technically, it was over that wouldn’t prevent the occasional fuck for "old time’s sake." You’d be mates, and no one would think twice about your affection towards each other. All in all, your life would return to normal. It would all be okay.
But it didn’t end the way it was supposed to end.
~*~*~*~
"Hayden, you can’t be serious."
You don’t really think that, but it’s your first reaction and the words are out before you can stop them. His eyes narrow dangerously, and maybe you would have been better off not saying anything. He shakes his head, not in negation, but in something akin to disappointment. The door closes quietly, and you're left alone with his words echoing in your head.
Pick. Choose. Make up your mind.
"Fucking prick! Of all the fucking nerve!" Despite your best attempt at indignation, the words fall flat.
You knew things were getting out of hand. You know you're closer than you should be. It’s your fault. It should never have happened in the first place. You're the one who’s married. You're the one with kids. It was stupid to get involved with him...to fall in love with him.
~*~*~*~
"So that’s it?"
"Don’t sound so surprised, Ewan. It was your choice," he shrugs.
"Hayden, I can’t just..."
You're angry with him now. Angry at what he’s asking you to do. Angry that he doesn’t really seem that upset that you’ve refused. Angry that he’s put you in this position, and angry that you’ve allowed it to happen.
You don’t have a choice. There’s only one way to go, and fuck him if he can’t understand that. Why he’s suddenly hugging you, you don’t know. You would push him away, but you're using all your effort not to melt into the embrace.
"We don’t have a prayer between us," he whispers against your ear. He’s so quiet, you think for a moment you may have imagined it.
When he finally lets go, he smiles at you sadly, and then he’s gone.
~*~*~*~
By the time the movie premieres, you're over him. You don’t wake up dreaming about him at night. You don’t search for something to hold onto to help you make it through the day. You don’t need him anymore.
When his lips brush against yours, you wonder if you ever really believed that.
Later, when you're able to steal a few uninterrupted moments with him, it all comes flooding back, and you're not sure how you ever let him go. He murmurs about starting over in your ear, and you hold him tight, assuring him with hushed promises that you’ll make it all okay. You don’t know if you can really do that, but he’s offering you the heavens. You can’t turn away; not again.
Make It All Okay by REM
You threw away the ballast and you rowed your boat ashore
Didn't you, now? Didn't you?
You made your ultimatum too big to ignore
Didn't you, now? Didn't you?
So you worked out your excuses,
turned away and shut the door.
The world's too vast for us now,
and you wanted to explore
It's a long, long long road
And I don't know which way to go
If you offered me your hand again I'd have to walk away.
When I saw you at the street fair, you called out my name
Didn't you, now? Didn't you?
You said we could start over, try and make it all okay.
Didn't you, now? Didn't you?
So our past has been rewritten
and you threw away the pen.
You'd said that I was useless,
but now you'll take me in again
Well Jesus loves me fine.
And your words fall flat this time.
Was it my imagination, or did I hear you say,
"We don't have a prayer between us."
Didn't you believe that I have finally turned away?
Didn't you, now? Didn't you?
Anything to hold onto to help me through my day.
Didn't you, now? Didn't you?
Jesus loves me fine.
But his words fall flat this time.
It's a long, long long road
And I don't know which way to go
If you offered me your world, did you think I'd really stay?
If you offered me the heavens, I would have to turn away.
Was it my imagination, or did I hear you say,
"We don't have a prayer between us."
Didn't you, now? Didn't you, now?
Didn't you?
Make It All Okay by REM
Please let me know if the link expires, runs out, or it there’s any other problems with it.
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Thank you
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OMG, there's such a strong feeling in each and every line of this. wow. really. wow.
I love that style.
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This part? It had me going WTF? No!
When his lips brush against yours, you wonder if you ever really believed that.
This part made me melt.
I love it!
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And I do love it better with all the changes. It turned out beautifully! :D
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The changes worked great. Thank you! *hugs*
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